Why am I in such a rush?

You would have heard me talk about it time and time again, how I’m addicted to productivity. I have this incessant need to be doing something productive 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. I work for myself and I work from home, so I know that has certainly impacted this shift in me because if I don’t work and work hard… I don’t get money. I can’t afford to slack. I can’t afford to have down days. But I also can’t afford to burn myself out by pushing and pushing and pushing myself. I’m well aware that we all need down-time and a period in our day to relax. I know that. So why can’t I implement that for myself?

Although being productive and organised are wonderful skills and traits to have – I very rarely think anything nice about myself (I touched on that in this post), so I’m sure as heck going to compliment myself where compliments are due – but I’m also fully aware that this isn’t healthy. And my problem is, is that I want everything done yesterday. I want to have achieved everything 2 weeks ago. I want to be 3 years ahead of where I really am, 4 months ago. I’m in a rush to do, achieve and cross every goal off my list. But why?

And I don’t have an answer. Honestly, I have absolutely no idea. Some part of me seems to think I’m 95, not 25. I have time. I have time. I know I will achieve what I want. I’m young. Things will improve. I will continue to work hard. I have time. But why does it feel like I don’t? Why am I so convinced that I don’t? I’m currently writing this post, for April at the beginning of March. I had started on my April content in February. And I already have posts scheduled for May. Although this takes a huge weight off my shoulders, why am I working myself to the ground to appear so god damn achieved to the outside world? Who really cares?

It’s something I’ve definitely been working on lately because I’ve identified – finally – that it is a problem and will only get worse if I don’t recognize it and do something about it. I’m trying to live in the moment more and not plan ahead to this evening, this weekend, next month. I’m staying on top of things so I don’t get stressed – and staying on top of things is really important to me – but at the same time cutting myself some slack at times when things can’t get done for whatever reason (like this weekend just gone – which was awful). I’m trying to recognize  how much I have achieved in this time instead of just worrying about what else I have to do.

This is clearly just a very word-vomitty type post, which I hope you don’t mind! It’s something that’s literally constantly on my mind. Like, constantly. So I thought maybe getting it written down will help and hopefully will be able to chat to someone who either feels the same, or has some advice for me! Do you feel like time is running out, when it isn’t? Are you also under an odd illusion that you need to have achieved everything already? How do you manage those feelings?

All advice / comments really appreciated! (As always)

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47 thoughts on “Why am I in such a rush?

  1. You know what? I have the exact same thought. I am 26, and I always feel like I need to achieve something at this early stage of my life. It’s like I’m rushing myself into achieving all my goals NOW so I’ll have plenty of time to just chill. Idk. I felt weird. Haha.

  2. I Think You’re Rushing Things Because Your Sub Conscious Mind Have A Feeling That If You Do Not Achieve Your Goals Now, Your Goal Might Not Matter To You In Future Or You Might Get Off The Track And Lost The Process..I Think You Must Like Being Productive Maybe You Havent Been Much Productive In Past And You Regret It, But All You Wanna Do Is Work Work And Work So You Won’t Regret Anything In Future..My Advice To You Is Do Whatever You Are Doing, Stay At Top Of Your Game, Go With Your Feelings Because You’re Crafting Your Future Right Now, Life Can Be Pretty Cruel Sometimes And Your Future Cannot Afford Any Mistake. But Please While Working Don’t Forget To Give Time To People Who Loves You, Dont Disconnect Yourself With World.. We Are Born In This World To Be Connected With Each Other, If You Think People Dont Deserve You, You Might Be Right, So Connect Yourself With Nature ❤

  3. This post is as if you’ve crawled into my head and spilled out my inner most thoughts! I’m in a rush for it all, to live, to chill and I have no clue why!

  4. I’d love to be as organised as you are but I can’t be! Partly that comes with having Flora and partly that comes freelancing. And then life throws a spanner in the works like this morning when our car wouldn’t start and I couldn’t find the jump starter pack – aaaaargh. I think I’ve just learned that I can’t control everything and if something doesn’t happen when I want it to, does it really matter? Will the sky fall in? Probably not, so that makes me feel better. Don’t know if this is useful advice for you or not, but it’s what I’m trying to live by now!

    Lisa | http://www.lisasnotebook.com

  5. I’m 19 but I’m such a rush when I see someone at the same age as mine doing things normally. The result they got is plenty of success instead of what I’ve done to myself. Sometimes I don’t give time to myself to chill or don’t connect to my friends and my love. I feel like I waste my time whenever I spend chilling with my friends. I think it’s not attach to my goal. If I don’t achieve my goal, they will look down on me… (sorry I’m not native in English) please correct me if there is mistake.

  6. I totally get this. Why is everyone in such a rush and why is there so much pressure for us all to whizz through life and not stop and just take it all in? I’m in my first year of university, I’m 21, and people keep asking me what I want to do when I leave. I honestly don’t know. I’m just trying to find my feet. I totally related to this post and I have to say you always get it absolutely spot on! It’s always a pleasure to read your content 🙂

    Xxx

  7. I’ve mentioned before that in terms of productivity I am the complete opposite of you – I don’t ever put effort in, I would rather not try than try and fail, and in turn I have fallen so far behind my peers that weirdly I’ve ended up in a similar thought – not that I’m running out of time, but that I have actually already run out. I’m only 28! While in my head that’s bloody ancient, in real terms I’m still at the beginning of life (hopefully anyway!) and yet I feel like a failure.
    I wish I had proper advice to give you, more so than just ‘I feel similar too’. It’s so hard. I just hope that you can allow yourself to relax and enjoy life with your loved ones as often as you can. You are so young and you’re already achieving so much, you deserve a bit of personal time too. xxx
    Beth x Adventure & Anxiety

    • Age is a funny thing isn’t it! It’s so subjective and can warp your view of almost everything depending on what age you are. And thank you 🙂 Same to you though but you should never be afraid to fail cos you can learn so much from failures 🙂

  8. I totally get this. I don’t feel productive unless I am constantly doing something, yet when I am doing something, I can’t wait to finish so I can go back to bed!

    I feel as though I should be a lot further in my life than what I am, and it is slightly annoying when I see so many other people accomplishing great things. I want to be able to sleep, have all the energy I need, feel like a well balanced human, have a social life, stay active within my hobbies, and be somewhat successful. How some people do it is beyond me!

    Adulting is so hard.

  9. I can totally relate to this. I feel like I always have to be doing something, achieving something otherwise I’m wasting time. If I just sit and watch a movie, I feel like I’ve wasted time. I should be blogging/catching up on admin/cleaning etc. It’s so hard to switch it off! So yeah, I feel ya.

  10. I used to be like you all the time especially during sixth form, I think I always wanted to make sure I was keeping up with the pace of my friends, which is crazy isn’t it?! I’ve definitely become more chilled now, and I honestly have no idea why, haha! I bet it’s great trait to have though in blogging, you’re always creating amazing content 🙂

    Kate | http://www.katelovesx.co.uk/

  11. always being on the go and always pushing to achieve your goals can be great, however remember that it is okay to have down time and do the things you enjoy – after all it the things you enjoy that aid your creativity and your blog is amazing! I find i am often thinking I’m being productive but being ineffectively productive. I conquered this by planning my days ahead of schedule and breaking tasks into smaller achievable tasks?
    Much love,
    Elle x
    blackseablonde.wordpress.com

  12. This is me all over. I have way too much that I want to stay on top of which was great for keeping me motivated, but now I’m working full-time, I just can’t seem to accept that I am allowed to stop, and actually none of these things are important in the long run. I physically don’t know how to relax, which has had a pretty huge impact on my health. I really hope there is a magical solution out there somewhere!

  13. I also get that ‘time is running out’ feeling. I like to stay on top of things and get things done months or weeks in advance. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn’t. I end up getting exhausted and needing to take time out to recharge.

  14. It’s a hard balance to strike, particularly as I have a 9-5 job, and a blog and podcast so always thinking about what’s coming up. I always like taking time for myself and like you am trying to be more ‘in the moment’ so don’t take my phone everywhere with me.

    Amy | hookedonthemusic.com

  15. I still rush. I’m 27 and I feel like I need to do more and more. Then. I woke up and reazlied while I was out rushing and keeping busy, I burned out and I missed the world going on around me. I was too busy to go here or there. I was too busy to sit and watch a movie with my husband. I realized what kind of life was I leading? I wasn’t happy at the end of all and I was too busy to notice I wasn’t happy! Now, I do rush at times, but now I sit and enjoy my life in front of me before I do turn 95 and I’m wondering where it all went.

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