Just to clarify before we get into it, the girl in the photo is me not just some random kid. And look how goddamn cute I was! I came home from a trip away to my boyfriend’s parents house “up norf” and saw this photo sitting in my parents bedroom. First of all, the frame is actually mine so I’m not so happy that my mum stole it but I thought it was cute nevertheless. I was looking at the photo whilst listening to Lea Michele’s version of “Wake Me Up” by Avicii (it’s a beautiful cover, you have to listen!) and all of a sudden I started crying. I know it sounds like I’m making this up but I’m not, genuinely, started to cry. For reals.
Earlier in the month, marked the date of TimeToTalk, a day to recognise mental health problems and talk to those around you about it. I unintentionally took part in this day by having a conversation with my best friend about both of our individual issues which helped understand each other and the differences between us both. This post today isn’t centred around TimeToTalk or mental health problems but it got me thinking about my life, the past, the present and if given the chance, what I would have told my younger self to help her prepare for the future.
I’m sure we’ve all thought back to a simpler time and wondered whether if we’d done something differently the future would have been shaped better or if we’d concentrated more in school or hung out with different people or went on more adventures we would be able to cope with now a lot better than we actually do. I like to believe in fate and destiny and I don’t believe if we went back and changed anything, things would be different now. I think everything would be exactly the same, we just would have got there another way. However, in a fantasy world, if I did get the chance to go back in time and meet my younger self, apart from slap her in the face for being an idiot in her teen years which I won’t disclose here, I’d like to think that if I gave her some words of advice that she’d hopefully be more prepared for what her unknown future holds. Continue reading